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it's gotten harder to cry, I've found.
it used to come so easily.
but now it's like admitting to something
I can't bear owning up to.
admitting sadness through
tear-soaked shirt sleeves
saturated with salty,
unnatural shame.
the lump in my throat makes
my words shake and swell
until they just can't come out
anymore.
And they're building up behind
that lump because it's metastasized
into more than just
a thought
or a feeling.
or a way to protect myself.
my eyes well up with tears that
my pride won't let me acknowledge.
and I wonder when I grew up
and got an ego.
and I wonder how love can be so stifiling;
apathy, so freeing.
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it used to come so easily.
but now it's like admitting to something
I can't bear owning up to.
admitting sadness through
tear-soaked shirt sleeves
saturated with salty,
unnatural shame.
the lump in my throat makes
my words shake and swell
until they just can't come out
anymore.
And they're building up behind
that lump because it's metastasized
into more than just
a thought
or a feeling.
or a way to protect myself.
my eyes well up with tears that
my pride won't let me acknowledge.
and I wonder when I grew up
and got an ego.
and I wonder how love can be so stifiling;
apathy, so freeing.
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Published 19th Jan 2010
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19th Jan 2010 00:43am
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19th Jan 2010 3:49pm
Ego will define us...
have you read "Anthem" by Ayn Rand? I'm no literature critic, but I found it terribly interesting.
have you read "Anthem" by Ayn Rand? I'm no literature critic, but I found it terribly interesting.
19th Jan 2010 1:22am
It seems strange that apathy can be so comforting. I wonder sometimes at the purpose of mankind's obsession with being without emotion and alone. Your writing is sensitive, keep it coming!
19th Jan 2010 3:54pm
isn't it just odd? Humans are such social creatures yet we can have such a fascination with solitude or emotional indifference. I guess it's only natural..one extreme going with the other.
15th Feb 2010 12:31pm
you create such vivid images, but at the same time they are so true and realistic. another poem of yours which is moving and meaningful. two last lines are just brilliant. great job
15th Aug 2013 2:13am
a good sense of direction and ideals... the periods n commas seem 2 contradict ur non-caps rebellious conduct in sway? still a good read! keep grindin
