All that I’m lacking

I lack confidence the way an addict lacks control
I lack self worth the way humanity lacks reason
I lack strength like my will is stuck lower than below
I lack importance like my soul is the last worth keeping

I lack more than enough to stop my feet from moving
I lack so much that the emptiness has become soothing
I lack more than enough to stop my mind from thinking
I lack so much that my dead weight started sinking
I lack so much that I wonder what my name sounds like
I’m lack so much that my demons finally took on the fight
I lacked so much to hat the darkness gave me everything
I lacked so much that all I lacked became nothing
I lacked so much that I forgot just what I’m lacking
I lacked so much that it finally stopped my crying

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