the pain of healing

these is a pain i feel
its so heavy as I'm healing
I have to yell at my self and say your gone
I cant stop feeling

its so easy how I can be replaced
you got what you needed from me
now I'm alone in these challenges that i have faced
forever was not to be

I'm growing stronger without
i have to mentally forget you for my sanity
even when I'm in doubt
i have some clarity

i always had this need to help you to save you
now i have to block that out
i can't help you when you'd don't want me to help
when your angry your voice is loud

i loved you i had your back
through everything you didn't appreciate it
these are the facts
I'm not gonna start a fit

i want peace
as i walk away to another part of my life
i know you're happy at least
this is goodbye this time it feels like i was cut with a knife