A Failed Chance

Not knowing the words to their song.
Wondering why I don't belong.
Unable to decipher what they say.
Like they would accept me anyway.
Just sit by myself in my space.
Away from them just in case.
Their laughter then reaches my ear.
After a while, it's all I can hear.
Being engraved inside of my head.
It fills my heart with dread.
If only I weren't too blind to see.
A desire sprouts within me.
Craving to laugh at their side.
Willing to sacrifice my pride.
I've recited my lines a million times.
Not needing to look up the rhymes.
When my turn finally came, I froze.
They got away from beneath my nose.
My world stayed an ashen gray.
I failed to become someone that day.