someone i use to know

i havent written about this person in awhile
I will say that you did give me the push I needed
maybe at one time for you I would of gone the long mile
they were signs I should of heeded

now I have a youtube channel and poetry books on amazon
so I thank you for that push
for some reason I feel your intentions were never pure
maybe I was in a rush

I saw the good in you
which is one of my biggest flaws
now I see someone that I don't want
ill say we did have a ball

I was just checking on you as a friend
you thought I had other intentions
makes me feel like you don't care about me
you just wanted to relieve some stress

you always think I'm not ok
honestly now I'm feeling great
I think its a red flag when you cant confined in someone
when your afraid of what they would say or think

I met you when I was in a dark place
when I was hurting not healed
looking for a different face
you were broken too

you never like me for me
you liked my body
I was patient I gave you your space
I was just tossed to the side while you went with others

now I don't need any type of validation
I'm able to love my poetry on my own
I don't need to be afraid of what others say or think
I'm happy alone at home

a lot of people will use my love for poetry to get to me
I feel that is awful and wrong
no matter what I'm going to keep going
no matter who I lose friends or lovers