the response fifteen year old me

so we are walking through the part
thinking what do you have to tell me
where does this story start
how bad can it be

I know he's not like everyone else
he is my friend
he protects me from mean people
I believe there's good inside him

I do feel scared at times the way talks
I did believe him even though I saw him with another girl
I'm also scared of the way he walks
I know I am blind

I always figured maybe he doesn't have time to see me
he's always in trouble he said he would change
I hear rumors and stories about him
this is not real it cant be

I don't know which way to go
I thought they liked me but I was wrong
why doesn't anyone like me
I thought everyone was good

so this person I am not meant to be with
this other person I will be married too
he wouldn't leave me
I will find peace

I thought it would be like in the movies
where you live happily ever after
where your knight conquers the dragon
and set out to the wind

where I would feel so alone
I wouldn't feel at home
I wanted to make it work
to stay In love

he does talking about these different characters
that is in his head
he has created his own universe
where he's looking for a queen

I guess I would have settle for less
so I would feel like I'm by myself
just focusing on the fantasy
not reality

I never thought of myself having children
I just wanted to stay small
not knowing what's out there
was in my own bubble


why would he do that
why would he be so mad
what happen to the fun
the jokes

now I'm feeling scared
I was so not aware
is this something I would be able to bear
does he even care

so we will be ok
I am trusting you
to see me through
so I wont be anybody fool