to my fifteen year old self

i just wanted to talk
to heal both you and me for what is about to come
lets go for a walk
we cant change whats going to be done

you are already getting to know a guy that is bad for you
you bought into the bad boy image
your curious I get it
you don't know what kind of monster he will become

he will cheat and lie
he expects you to stay pure and innocent
just so he can get by
he will listen to friends

he will spend months away from you
its going to be toxic on and off relationship
he will make you believe that you're a fool
you're going to make some mistakes

you will be hurt finding comfort in others
these people will use you
you will be so naive
listening to everyone's pretty lies

friendship will be tested
when your eighteen you will meet the real love of your life
you will have joys and pain but real love with this person
you will have your first baby girl in your twenties

this where things get bad
things will get to heavy for you to handle
real life isn't always so rad
there is light even in darkness turn on the candle

you will leave him because its to much for you
you were looking for some type of emotion
he would give it to you
so you will go looking for it

you will see that monster I told you about
he will act like he's everything you will need
you will be drawn in
this is the day your marriage will end

in this process of having feelings for both
you ask your first love what are you guys
he says he doesn't know so you stay with the bad one
thinking that was smart but you are wrong

then after some time, you will find out your pregnant
what I wonderfully daughters you have now
you ended up living with the bad one later on
and you see who he is

he is very jealous and possessive
you can only be with him
you cant not go outside much
he's always around you

you feel like you can't breathe
all he knows is hatred
he doesn't show sympathy for anything
you though who you had was bad you went to something worse

until one day you will snap out of the spell
you will free yourself
this wasn't what you want
you want to be happy

even if your forever alone