Lost soul

How many times i fall for you love,
but you never catch me?  
  
I convinced myself, its ;...  
 the worth of not looking handsome  
yet many adores my looks.  
the degree i obtained could work    
yet the heart keeps breaking nonstop nor  
the money i have is good enough to get you love  
   
I gave up chasing you Love    
i got empty.  
my heart turned cold like it was in a freezer.  
I crashed many souls as mine was dying  
   
ended up with no joy.  
I remembered  you were missing  
but searching for you i knew i wouldn't  find you  
as i never had you.  
   
hello there  
i hope you hear me  
Hello there Love  
where/how can i find you