my treasure in life

i’ve taken good notes    
no mental naps,
paid more attention    
drawn better maps,  
   
i’ve paid the cost,  
gone though the loss,    
back broke mind cracked,  
stretched in every direction    
like torture on the rack,  
   
every pandora’s box    
a stress or a strife,  
best decision i made    
was both wrists to the knife,  
   
as light begins to fade  
to irreversible night,  
didn’t realize my treasure  
was living my own life..