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forever untold

   
Lying in bed in a pool of his own sweat, cant stand the smell, haven’t moved for over an hour    
but right now the farthest thing from his mind is to get a fucking shower    
been dope sick all day, gut is wrenching, muscles aching    
they say most of it is in your head, but this pain theres no faking    
How to get money ? burned every bridge, every friend      
things he's done there’s no way he can ever mend    
he wants go to rehab, but the waiting list is so long    
he is sick of this life, but with heroin its hard to be strong  
he has two beautiful children whom he loves very much, he was a good father once  
the pain and the shame is far to much, he hasnt even thought about them in months    
cant believe mom hasn’t kicked him out    
she does threaten to, scream & shout    
she has aged so much from the shit he put her through    
last winter he overdosed she found him cold and blue    
he'd be dead if she didn’t come home just then    
sometimes he wishes she'd left him there and this nightmare would just end    
she cries herself to sleep each night, thinking about her son    
who’s now just an evil, deceitful, junkie fucking scum    
the good son, high school honors, a time so long ago    
his name is not important, so we shall call him john doe    
she sleeps with her purse hidden from her kin    
sadly tonight he's out to rob her again    
doesn’t take him long to locate her wallet    
definitely fucked up, whatever you wanna call it    
$ 24 dollars was it, two fives and fourteen ones was all he could get    
its barely enough to get him “off sick”    
it will have 2 do, out the door like a flash    
calls his dealer “G” to say “I need 4” cause I finally got some cash    
he said met me at the spot, hurry cause im close      
wont be more then 5 min, the shady dealer boast    
beads of sweat rolled down the back of his neck despite the freezing winter wind    
another product of dope sickness, he could not stop the quivering of his chin    
is it the cold ? is it the impatience ? probably both    
without a doubt this endless waiting game is what any junkie hates most    
25 minutes passed before johnny called him back    
im standing in the cold, where the fuck are you at ?    
Chill mutha fucka I’ll be there pretty fast    
his suv came into view after another 30 minutes past    
his rims still spinning as he slowed to a stop    
G glanced back to make sure the oncoming car was no cop    
john doe's violontly shanking hands pass him the fives rolled atop the stack of ones    
he wanted it to appear as though he had sufficient funds      
better not be short again this time, best be $40 in your hand    
he passes him a small bundle, secured tightly with a rubber band
before G had a chance to add up all the cash    
johnny boy bolted threw a yard, hauling fuckin ass    
amazingly he expolodes with a quick burst of adrenaline    
its psycological, just knowing he pocesses his savior, his "bad medicine"    
he finds an abandoned house with the door left ajar    
again every muscle burns, glad he didnt have to go very far    
he finds a spot near a window on the second floor, so the street lamp casts a little light    
from his pocket he retrieves the tools of his trade, the weapons of his plight    
a syringe, a spoon and water filled in a empty 20oz bottle of pop  
he stares at 4 glassine envelopes with the name “hot shot” stamped across the top    
many people overdosed recently from this particular stamp bag in the hood    
suddenly hes like a kid at Christmas, this means there really good !    
One by one he dumps them in the spoon    
anticipation for the high he will be feeling very soon    
he adds some water to make an iced tea colored devils brew    
he has no belt so resorts to take the lace out his shoe    
finally cotton from the butt of this menthol cigarette    
its used as a filter cause if the needle clogs...he is fucked, u can bet    
tying off his track marks become noticeably 3 dimensional      
deep and dark from years of drug abuse, normal folk would deem unconventional    
as he pulls back surprisingly the rig fills with blood, a sign he is in the vein    
usually he has to fish around to find one that hasn’t collapsed, like a snowman in the rain    
a grin draws wide as he plunches the liquid poison deep in his arm without a care    
all his muscles tighten at once as a tremendous warmth took over despite the bitter cold air    
as he slumped into the corner he felt as though he was melting into the wall and tried with no avil to shout      
deeper and deeper he began to fall out    
tunnel vision began to take hold    
he stared silently out the window into the cold    
the pulsating street light growing dimmer, as his sight was engulfed by darkness... forever darkness behold    
the story of the man he COULD have been...    
forever untold
Written by dmccartan (Dave McCartan)
Published | Edited 6th Feb 2012
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