Death without dying (intended version)

Death without dying
Got to be worse
Than simply dying
Where do I begin
Go back
Go ahead
Moment of now
Shut myself down
Turn me off
Build my wallls
An elaborate
Plan really
Quite consuming
Besides building
Is better
Than digging
Isnt' it?
Building up
Rather than
Digging down
Or are...
They of equal value
Digging can be
Cause to build
Can open wounds
Not yet known
I suppose like
Fleshly wounds
Most do heal
Or compensate
Serve as go between
A crutch
In the healing game
Of life