How Does it feel

How does it feel ?    
When you falling down again ?  
The familiar road begins.      
How does it feel ?      
Will it wash away your sins ?  
The stains from your addiction cloud a perfect pictures lense ..      
How does it feel ?      
So you took the fast lane .      
Could've swore you were pushing tin.      
Nevermind the hard times
 You can numb it  , and just pretend.      
But the road is crumbling..  
Fast beneath your wheels.      
You cant unwind  the hands of time .. once the dealer spins the wheel.      
How does it feel ?      
It was one more dream to just stay clean until you hate it out your heart ...      
And how does it feel ?