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I am scared

I am scared.

I am scared to be haunted by the brutality that lingers between us,
Its distance.
Your beautiful doe eyes have seen it all - the bad and the good, thus,
It has outdistanced.

And now as I try to crawl back to my throne,
I feel boneless.
I dont want to rot, screaming in that zone,
I feel helpless.

I am scared.

I am scared of scratching that smile while all I want is-
to adore it,
I am scared of dirtying your stock of happy tiles while all i want is-
to floor it.

I am scared.

I am scared of your starlight supressing in my own darkness,
In a virtual fraction.
I am scared of my eclipsed words to detach your starkness,
To regain retraction.

I am scared.

I want to breathe with you, but not your portion of air.
Your name on my lips like a signal flare.
I want to conquer places with you, without looking at the fare.
But yet here I am, thinking of you and it is giving me quite a scare.

Yes, I am scared.

Written by Mssukser

(A Struggling Poet)

Published 6th Jul 2020

Author's Note

Sometimes we get obsessed with someone so much that we forget that they have their own space to breathe and live. When they leave, it suddenly makes you feel like you ran out of air to breathe.

Even if you get back, you are scared of being the same person that you once were.

Poem replicates the same thought.