Heaviness

I know that God heard my pray
 
Everything that once hurt  
Disappeared...
 
My healing begin  
He restored his queen
He poured life back into me  
 
now I feel a sense of peace
... but
Heaviness fills me
 
God is love
But god can't hold me at tight
Or spoon me threw the night  
 
 
A feeling  
A need  
A desire  
For love.....
 
My heart has battle wounds  
But this feeling  
This need  
This desire  
For physical touch... is unbearing  
 
 
A simple rub on my cheek  
Wiping  tears away.... until I fall asleep  
 
A dance ....arms wrapped around me  
Swaying to a music beat ....
 
Holding me tight
Making me believe  
That someone in this world actually love me......