Tea Over Koffee

A peculiar event
To be spilling tea over a cup of coffee  
About someone I genuinely thought loved me  
Waking up to nicotine and echoing vacancy  
Exhaling my mind to reveal your twisted ride  
Sticking around during your highest tide  
Disregarding your flaws and seeing to your core  
Passion, spark, and fire  
The sweetest and saddest crier  
Turning out to only be there to keep me warm  
I thought decency was uniform  
Winter is crippling and lonely  
My heart and I were over feeling numb  
My fingertips on your skin after conversation and too much rum  
Then the sun peaked and made me run for shelter  
I did everything in my power to make you feel better  
Asking the cards and still playing the fool  
Time is a concept that doesn’t cost money but change is meant to be spent  
So they say, fate is for the things that are meant  
Giving so much, being your window and your pain  
I know I don’t smoke, I can explain  
Once I’m clenching another boge  
My glass is running low but I can’t bare another substance  
To your well that I kept pouring  
Wishing you well in your darkness and mourning  
I’ll consider this closure for now darling  
Life without love is defeating  
But, love without life is depleting  
Another thing on the list to start grieving  
I hope you don’t ruin another care sitter  
I can’t tell whose drink is tasting more bitter