Lobotomised Girl.

Despise, dislike, disgust
Dead words meaning nothing
Hate -  not such a strong word
Not when I think of you
So tame on my tongue
That wants to be acid
I need a better word
something more to utter..

If I could I would I promise
Lobotomised girl - My title forever  
Completely numb, no feeling, no desire
Sat on the bed on the grey stale sheets
Wondering why you did this to me
I wasn't yours, you once told me in a mutter  
stole my mind to corrupt with your vile matter
I can't escape this hell, this cycle of nothing.

There’s just no way to clearly think!
But I try and fight through the cloudy haze
Hoping for freedom, an escape from this
I can't make a sound, you made that happen
But the cogs turn within, a fire burning
When I look at you I wish I could smile
That way you'd know the nasty thoughts I have
Thinking of the ways I'd surely bring your end
My master, my captor I'm not so lifeless.