My wounds won’t heal

I have a feeling that this isn't real but
I am wrong, it is real so real.
How can this pain stop
When my heart breaks deeper
It seem like it's getting deeper everyday
I know you are where you need to be
Even though its not here with me
I know that you were needed in heaven for something
But what about me
I never got the chance to tell you goodbye or
How much you mean to me
Or maybe you knew how i felt
How do i just go on from this
How do i make the hurting stop
I don't think i can
I miss you so much it physically hurts