Everyday

Everyday i wake up
Thinking i should text you
But then i get slapped with reality
That your really gone and it's not just a dream

Everyday life tries to push me to move on
Even though Im dragging my feet
Because it just hard to go on
Most days it ease not to cry
Other days i cry the whole day through

People say time heals
But i don't really see how
Its like now every time
I think of how i can go up to your work to get
A hug from you and to see your smiling face
I feel my chest tightening up in pain
Cause i know what i can't because your gone

I know this would seem so selfish
To wish that you were here alive on earth
Because  heaven need a hero like you
So smart so caring so helpful
I know its wrong to wish you back
Just to make the hurting stop

I'm trying to pick up
the broken pieces of my heart and
Go on with my life
But it's hard
No matter how hard i cry
It don't help
*crys*
All the things I should have said but didn't
Im sorry. I'm a mess right now but
I promise I'll try to be better