Fated Days

Thank you for being the woman who saw in me what I could not see.
Thank you for always being there to advise me in so many different things.
Thank you for understanding, even when it was clear you probably didn't really understand a thing.
Thank you for loving me unconditionally
and for being the best mom that you could be.
I miss watching you cook breakfast early in the morning as everybody else was still asleep.
I miss visiting just to sit with you in the evenings as you watched your beloved stories.
I miss how you'd get angry and call me every brothers name before finally getting to mine.
Then we'd both laugh and forget about what angered you at the time.
I........
I was not prepared for the pain I felt that November 11th day, when you took your last breath and you quietly faded away.
You made us all promise when you passed that we would not cry.
As much as I tried, I could not keep that promise mom, Sorry that I lied.
Standing over you I felt my chest collapse deeper and deeper inside.
My heart quivered and several tears rolled down my face that I could not hold back or begin to hide.
To have a great mother in life this is the cost.
Now I know the meaning to "It is better to have loved and lost."