Dear suicide

The thought of you was scary back when I was young
When I felt love but didnt know what love was

I thought of you once I was trapped
When I was confused and angry

I thought of you as a release
When there was no where to turn to

You arnt scary now
When your on my mind

I feel worthless and lost without a purpose
When will it stop

I know
When you come around and take me with you

I will leave everything behind good and bad
When I take your hand

You dont scare me anymore
When death is all you've got

My friends and family will be sad but they'll heal sometime
When I decide that this is right and I cant fight on

I tried pills to get rid of you and i hate you dont get me wrong but
When i have you in my head that's the only time I have an answer

Your not the right one but how would I know
When I dont know right from wrong

My family loves me so does my boyfriend but
When you come around I cant seem to think of them

You make me selfish and make me crave a life without pain
When times get tough

Fuck you
Please go away