Submissions by Audibird

My mind is empty yet so full
Screaming and silent all at once
I'm overwhelmed and underwhelmed
Fighting but never winning
When I think I won it's an illusion
Just a sick joke no one laughs at
Thoughts race around my head like NASCAR except no one wins
No one stops
Constant movement, no breaks no breathers no mercy
I zone out just so I can settle my internal war but to no surprise it always fails
When I think I'm happy my mind drops in a memory I didnt know I had
Just so the Hornets in my head go haywire
More buzzing more engines...

The thought of you was scary back when I was young
When I felt love but didnt know what love was

I thought of you once I was trapped
When I was confused and angry

I thought of you as a release
When there was no where to turn to

You arnt scary now
When your on my mind

I feel worthless and lost without a purpose
When will it stop

I know
When you come around and take me with you

I will leave everything behind good and bad
When I take your hand

You dont scare me anymore ...

I need help but I know not what kind
I'm truly losing my broken mind
I wanna be happy i wanna be free
But others are more deserving than me
I seek closure without a light
I'll never find it so why even fight
Time heals slowly is what they say
But I still sit here day by day
Waiting for the wounds to close
Another day here another day goes
I still feel the pain as if its fresh
The memories eat away at my flesh
Not from the outside but from within
I feel the anger beneath my skin
I live with this day by day
I...