left wanting

corrupt heart heavy with loneliness
lips can't move
tongue that cannot declare forgiveness
soul that cannot love

brain develops arythmea
shaking from blows to the head
continious emmotional rejection
miracle im not dead

shadows follow me around
whispers in my ears
holds me,makes no sound
coagulates my fears

eyes swell up
pain turns to tears
no one to wipe my eyes
been so all these years

no one to blame
but myself
no one to shame
but myself

solitude an antidote
but a temporary one
close the curtains to my soul
blocking out the sun

let me leave some advice
on loneliness and pain
make friends will people just like you
or you will go insane