Analyzing the demon.

Analyzing the demon.



So I get it now.
It's the thing my father told me about.
The monster that would burn my bridges.
The thing he wanted lifted before he was lifted away from me.
Not until now did I realize how right he was.
The reason I don't trust,
The reason I loathe,
The reason in can't keep you all,
The reason they are able to conform in malice,
The reason I let them drive me,
It's been ruining me lately and projected itself onto you.
Forgive me.
If I could beg I would.

I'm sorry.
I just found out.
I just realized that my worst enemy isn't even myself,
But my doubt.
It's not you,
It actually is me,
What scares me the most is that I think you know that,
and it's too late.
If so,
As much as it hurts,
I understand.
Even when self inflicted the pain is far too great.

It's my new goal to make sure that this monster can't take.

I'm done sipping this Pain Koolaid.