Love as a sickness

Im so very tired, Lord.
So weak and unsure.
I feel so sick deep inside,
And I'm afraid there's no cure.
I don't know how to fight it.
Don't even know if I can ....
Because whatever happens ,
It's all part of a plan.
But Heavenly Father,
Please spare me more pain .
I'm not sure j can take it ,
Without going insane.
I've learned so many lessons,
From so many mistakes.
And I've found there's no cure ,
For the heart when it breaks.
No one is immune ,
And there is no vaccine.
They say time will heal it ,
But what does that even mean ?
Because time didn't heal it ,
You just learn to adjust.
To live with the pain,
And forget how to trust.
Is it contagious?
Will it happen again ?
It's an unending battle ,
And there's no way you can win.