Miss understood

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going through some shit that nobody can get,
my girl is 2000 miles away and I need,
a hug
a kiss
a touch
a chance
A chance to love you right, love you like you love Winnie the pooh,
and a kiss that will last forever,
a hug that will release your pain and forever make you satisfied

I don't talk to my dad anymore, nor my mom
I text and I don't a reply,
feeling alone

I have a sister and a niece
that's a blessing to have
but I'm not satisfied
I have her name on my arm and we are,
close like Tigger and pooh,
and or thought

I believe in God, or so I thought,
my faith is real,
but I still feel
hate,
tired to give my all
but my all is never enough
or so I thought
how can I have faith in God, when I can't see,
but if i can't see oxygen but I believe I can  breath, so why can't I believe in him.

The devil is real
that I believe
eating at me to the fullest
the pain is deep
the pain is real
always hate
negative when not needed to be

voices inside my head
fighting between the truth
fighting in between the two
and fighting between
what's real
@
fake
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