This Is Gonna Hurt. Isn't It?

It's hard for me to express my feelings
I've never been great with that
I don't have to tell you, I know
But you do make me want to get better
You always have really
Even when I wasn't a good person
And you stuck by me anyway
Sometimes I still wonder why you did
I love that when we are together
It feels like nothing's changed
The sparks are so evident
Chemistry is brewing
Or maybe I'm just insane
Or arrogant enough to think I qualify
To be someone who could have you
But I'm a coward
I could never tell you all those things
Like that I get lost in your eyes
Or that you smell so intoxicating
Like a drug that I just can't quit
Or that your touch is my favorite
And that it fills me with warmth
That your smile makes my heart skip
And your laugh makes me actually happy
That you are the pinnacle of sexiness
From your every curve
To your every imperfection
You are perfection to me
Holding you felt like home
I wish it could have lasted a lifetime
I wonder if I will ever tell you this
Or if I will forever remain a coward
Maybe you'll never feel that for me
I know I have no right
But I can't help wondering
Where you are
Who you're with
Who you're thinking about
Who's hands are touching you
But they aren't mine
And you probably don't think of me
Not anymore atleast
I'll still see you in my dreams I guess
What I have learned from life is that
Everyone leaves in the end
But you never did
The day you do... it's gonna hurt
I'll be slowly shattering inside
Until no amount of glue could repair
All the cracked and splintered pieces
But even still
I will smile and say it's ok
Because I will always love you
And I would rather drown in misery
Than see you sad for a moment