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Misery
One day up, one day down
Want to smile but all I can do is frown
Crying in bed all day long
Not even sure what's really wrong
Thoughts of cutting float on by
Sometimes wish I would just die
Sick of constantly feeling this way
This game I no longer want to play
Tired in every sense of the word
I'm only seen, never heard
All I do is continue to hide
Everything I have going on inside
Close myself off to everyone I'm near
Because I'm full of so much fear
All these thoughts racing through my head
Eyes welled up, tears ready to be shed
People ask me whats's wrong all the time
I just lie and say "I'm fine"
I sit in my room and isolate
Stirring up all this anger and hate
But can't you see?
It's not you I hate, it's me
Just want to be left alone
All these behaviors I shouldn't condone
I scare myself when I get like this
Feelings of wanting to cease to exist
I've learned what I have to do to change
But doing something new feels so strange
There must be more towards that I can strive
Before my depression eats me alive
Want to smile but all I can do is frown
Crying in bed all day long
Not even sure what's really wrong
Thoughts of cutting float on by
Sometimes wish I would just die
Sick of constantly feeling this way
This game I no longer want to play
Tired in every sense of the word
I'm only seen, never heard
All I do is continue to hide
Everything I have going on inside
Close myself off to everyone I'm near
Because I'm full of so much fear
All these thoughts racing through my head
Eyes welled up, tears ready to be shed
People ask me whats's wrong all the time
I just lie and say "I'm fine"
I sit in my room and isolate
Stirring up all this anger and hate
But can't you see?
It's not you I hate, it's me
Just want to be left alone
All these behaviors I shouldn't condone
I scare myself when I get like this
Feelings of wanting to cease to exist
I've learned what I have to do to change
But doing something new feels so strange
There must be more towards that I can strive
Before my depression eats me alive
Published 14th Mar 2020
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14th Mar 2020 10:15pm
I like this as it comes from the heart. I thought the rhyme was pretty good. Some flowed more than others and that happens to me too. I enjoyed it though as it's who you are. Poetry should not only come from the mind and soul, but the heart. We all have depression. Some worse than others. If you want to talk to me about it, you can. I had a pretty interesting journey myself. I enjoyed reading it as I could relate to it and it was pure. Sad yes but pure.
14th Mar 2020 10:58pm
Thank you. Appreciate the kind words. For whatever reason my poetry always has to rhyme. My depression and addiction are a huge inspiration of my poetry. I'd like to know what you think of the next one I'm waiting to submit, it's called "The Struggle Within." I have to wait like another hour before I can submit it.
