Nights Like These

It's nights like these
that I miss you the most
When I can't sleep
and I start to wish that you could see
all that has changed since you left
I've become someone new
because of you
I've coped in ways
that I am not proud of
and thought about joining you
I'm still mad
that you left me here
not all alone
but as the only hope
The only hope for our family
that's fallen apart since you left
but we both know
it was broken
long before your overdose
long before you even tried
all of those drugs you took
But somehow
you were the last straw
the final broken thread
that had kept the quilt of our family together
Now that you're gone
things are in shambles
and I'm the last resort
the one that desperately clings
to the fabric of that quilt
trying to hold it together
while it's being ripped out of my hands
I know that someday
I will have to let it go
and watch all of my efforts
be torn to shreds
All because you're gone
and I'm still stuck
missing the times when you were here