A Peculiar Love

We had a peculiar love for each other.
I don’t think I’ll ever find this love again.
We had the closest relationship.
You were an obedient young lady,
But I didn’t take advantage of your compliancy.

You let me do anything that pleased me.
I could play in your long black hair,
And I could sleep in your comfortable bed.
You allowed me to caress your legs.
I could hug you like a little child,
And I could kiss you any time I wanted.

We often ate and drank together,
Yet I felt that I didn’t actually have you.
I wanted you to be my wife,
But I knew that it wasn’t going to work.
This is what I was worried about,
And I made the worst decision of my life.

You felt that things were going okay,
And you were puzzled that I wasn’t satisfied.
You didn’t mind loving me in secrecy,
But I wanted more than that.
I couldn’t continue waiting indefinitely,
So I finally decided to back away.

My impatience led to our breakup.
Sadly, you took it the wrong way.
When I called you, you hung up the phone.
My feelings for you didn’t end there.
Darling, I wish you had seen that.

Even though I partially had you,
I felt much better at that time than I do now.
Our love for each other was so peculiar;
Even now, I can’t understand it.
The important thing is that I still love you,
And you have a reason to believe me.