Lying here

 

Lying here next to you,
Trying to escape
The thought of him.

My mind prefers his touch.
My body yearns for it,
But you’ll have to do.

Want and need,
Very different things.
I want to want you,
But I need him.

Torn between:
Ashamed to feen.
Lust or love.
None of the above.

Floating around,
Not wanting you.
But I force my self
Back down.

I settle in
Not ready to give in.
In my mind
I’ll continue to sin.

Lying here next to you
Trying to escape
The thought of him