Capricorn to Cancer

Born on December 31st, that new year's eve morning.
Dull days, dull knives, Always loved the rain pouring.
Got a bad thing with hating myself but loving all of you.
39 years and over 200 stitches still feeling pretty blue.
Not all from trials with suicide, there was that bike fall.
I sit here now always have, I wonder why try at all?

She fell in love with me on that June 23rd night.
I tried to say no, push back, I knew it wasn’t right.
But oh she had her way and that night I lost control.
This life’s biggest secret I don’t want anybody to know.
She consumed this Capricorn whole with her cancer.
No cure, no way, and I prayed but God never answered.