All Mixed Up

I hate the submissive scent
That you purposefully give off
They trust your innocence
Eyes of ice turn every alarm off

When you say sorry
You really mean
'Fuck you
I own my perception
Therefore
I own yours too'

It's a game you play
And it drives me insane
I can see
But oh
I can't
You make sure I question each day

Because you're truly false
Around everyone else
Slipping for a small taunt
Sliding back with stealth

Peering into me
Curiosity in your eyes
Changing the tone
When we talk
Your pupils spreading wide

That twitch
You try to hide
When I mention another's name

True, deep concern
When I'm cross
Or in any kind of pain

... It was so unexpected
When you finally
Clapped back at me
For naming you something...
Seems it brought bad memories

The rage peeking
Leaking
As your fists trembled in fear
Then defiance
As you refused to tuck those ears

Slipping hard...
There you are....

Since, we've been out several times
How can you sexualize
Without even trying

How can you be so steady while wildly flying
Dangling me between your eyes as my kitty's crying ...

Wait

Time to take a pause on these turbid lines
Before I get to the treachery stirring between these thighs

I'm just trying to say
I see me in your eyes
And it terrifies more
Than you can ever surmise

Fuck it.

Invite me out tonight
Round ten, my friend
We can lay out on your hood
And pretend again

Stare out at as infinity blinks
Windows down and listen
Blasting Nugent, Ratt
Finish with some Zeppelin

Like every time...
I can pretend Im not thinking of your beard between my hips
You can pretend to pay attention while fixating on my lips

When you stare and burn your gaze into mine
We can pretend youre not challenging
... If I let out a sigh

I can pretend I caught a chill
While you hunt in my labyrinth
Scent the hallways for the kill
Stiffening at the vastness

You can cackle when I surprise you
Or when you teach me something new
Like you always do...
Inching closer
As we touch on deeper views

Every time we argue...

You lose your cool and bite your lip
Nostrils flaring... breath slips...
Unsteadily quick

Our hearts beat audible enough to wake the gods
This time
I'll not let fear take over cause all time has paused

Mm

There's that smile in front of Kaczynski eyes
As you prowl around my space
Testing limits all night

Waiting for the cave
Inching towards a fight
Circling closer and closer
Smiling with nihilistic delight

Just then
I recede again...
Like I said I wouldn't

You take me home
Smirking cause you won
And knew I couldn't.