Book of Shadows 4

I have done some research on one of the dreams I had. In the dream there was a group of children that were living in a decrepit barn and were covered in dirt and filth. There were over a hundred children living in the barn, I think I might have been the oldest person there and acted much like a mother figure to the children. Suddenly the children started a war within themselves, I did not seem to pick a side or help any of them stay alive or kill each other. Instead I cleaned them up when it was done and scolded them when they walked too close to a scene too gruesome if they were younger. According to the few things I could find about it, this could be a manifestation of the anger I feel at myself and the adults around me who did not help when I was younger and hurting myself as well as the anger I have yet to resolve that comes from the trauma and abuse I suffered as a child. Now that I know that is why I am dreaming it, hopefully I can work through that now. I also have started to try to connect with my inner self, my true self so that I can improve and feel better and more confident. I feel that the goddesses and gods are listening to me and that I am paying them their respects again. It feels good to listen and to feel their power. It also makes me feel stronger and like I am learning more about the world.