A SUBLIMINAL MESSAGE

As the dawn of a new day comes over the horizon, and here I sit amongst the quietness of unspoken thoughts, that roams throught the mere depth of my mind, pulling at the very fabric of my heart and soul as they dig deeper into my subconsiousness of my mind.                                                                                                  
                                                                                                                                       Yet as these subliminal messages, echos from the mere words express from off an page bringing images to my mind of a time not forgotten but remembered deep within my mind, as the words have an way of cutting me to the core of my spiritual soul opening up old scars that only began to heal over time. From the abuse of what I thought and felt was love only on my part, but in fact the love really wasnt love at all only within my own mind heart and soul which left an bitterness of a taste so sour, as old uneaten sweet grapes that should of been thrown away along time ago. For its true I have been hurt by many womens more times then I care to remember, as I am reminded of the pain that seems not to ever go away till I had to build a wall around me, to protect me and my mind and heart for my own safety and sanity from breaking what is precious to me. For someone once asked me why is it so hard for a woman to get close to you, as a man with an caring heart and an gentle kindred soul who shows love with great strenght and wisdom with inner courage, and an deep mind of knowledge of life with the understanding of others hearts but yet not of your own. Its simple you see I have tried to let a few womens within, only to be fooled into believing that they wont do what has been did over the years yet it happen, and I am alone to rebuild my life all over again like it was some kind of game to them. For its not that I have trust issues that is as far away from the truth, for you see I have trusted people at there words only to be given an illusion of broken promises which made me have peoples issue with some folks. Who only seem to not really understand that sometimes another persons hurt and pain, may go deeper than you think when it comes and concerns the matters of there own heart and mind and spiritual soul. For in order for me to feel safe with you I must have trust within you and have an inner connection with you, as I have to feel secure with you for love has nothing to do with it as that shall come to pass. For once you've been within that whirl wind of changes called love, you wouldnt want to step back into the devils den again knowing fully well he will not feed you mentally and emotionally, not even physically nor spiritually only draining you of your blood that flows through your veins of lines goes into your heart feeding your soul of souls.