Don't mess this up

Its my last chance,    
I cant mess this up    
I've accomplished so much  
but fail at so much more  
God not only knock down walls    
he open door after door  
And I.....Shut them on purpose    
And played in Sin, walked around With a hurtful Grin    
Pretending Im content with life  
Knowing no one truly wants me    
as their wife  
Not in this life  
He didn't leave me flat on my face or taunt me with
 "I told you so's"
or turned his head in disgrace He stretch his arm and hand out to me    
Giving me a chance to grab it    
Warning me time is short    
Don't get caught....  
off guard is a nasty habit  
I prayed for one more open door    
And promised God    
this many times Before    
and broke every one like Glass  
Always running to fast  
I Cant mess this up,
I have to win    
Always ending up where I've always been  
Now I have A full suit of Amor and my Pen    
A smiling Face and healthy grin    
I Going try not to mess this up again.