i imagine cutting you down with my words but in reality my voice breaks and i am humiliated again

how dare you

you do not know how far i would have gone

this time i fucking mean it

like the last crumbs of a baggie and your friends fucking fucking each other in the same room while you dissociate and fall into yourself

i’ll not be the same

the first lie was i will never lie to you

the last lie was i care

the worst thing about all the people you meet
is not their pretentiousness
their racism
their audacity

it’s you

and having met you

i am fucking spun silver
you deserve, like you are afraid of
to die alone