Numb

 
I’m numb,
I’m fucked up,
I’m feeling torn up,
I’m feeling up one minute then the next minute I’m feeling down.
Why do you belittle me whenever I’m at my lowest?
Do you enjoy seeing me cry?
I fucking hate it when you make me feel this way.

I’m so sick of living this way,
I’m sad and done with feeling this way;
Tell me am I alive? I don’t know anymore ‘cause I feel like I’m already dead inside,
I’m dead and numb yeah,
I’m sad and numb yeah.
I’m dead and numb yeah,
I’m sad and numb yeah.

Do you feel my pulse? ‘Cause honestly I feel like I’m already dead inside.
Is this life? I don’t even know anymore ‘cause honestly all I see is darkness around me as I’m witnessing people trying to find a way to cope inside as they on one hand speak their truth through their pain while at the same time getting judged for how they look or what they do so they bury their insecurities deep down inside as they try to drown them out with a little bit of Fenty, a little bit of Lean, a Little Xans, Coke and Vodka;
Party till you can’t stand
Hell party till you can’t breathe again.
Repeat the same cycle over and over again till you feel your body slipping away.
But it’s ok just close your eyes and count to ten, relax now don’t cry now just drift away till you see you’re in a better place.
Shhh don’t open your eyes you don’t need to see the darkness anymore just walk a little more closer to the light I promise I can take you there.
As I hear you breathing much more slowly and softly you tell me

I’m so sick of living this way,
I’m sad and done with feeling this way;
Tell me am I alive? I don’t know anymore
‘Cause I feel like I’m already dead inside,
I’m dead and numb yeah,
I’m sad and numb yeah.
I’m dead and numb yeah,
I’m sad and numb yeah.