Eyes of the abyss (revised)

Been in a haze
ever since
I wandered and gazed 
into the eyes of the abyss..
I've stumbled and swayed,
tumbled through disarray 
only to find
 I'm the cause of my dismay. 

Been awhile since I
took a second to just
sit with myself. 
Too long it's been,
so far gone I seem again.. 
In my mind all I do is run run run 
and quicky burnout 
in no blazing glory, 
still stuck in my same ole
sad story. 

"I and I" 
existing in a space 
of self disgrace 
and endless explorations. 

"I and I" 
one soul to another, 
have hope through your tribulations. 

Think I'll get up and 
take a trip beyond my being,
nothing going on here
just fleeing the pain and fear.. 
but if I leave now 
I'll never know what could've been.. 
"I got nothing to say" 
A feeling following
filling me with fear forever..

"I and I" 
In existence you're 
 sent soaring only to
suddenly sink. 

"I and I" 
One who believes he's nothing 
is bound to break down
 cause of the way he thinks. 

The journey of man,
an ancient enigma. 
Perhaps there's no plans
despite all the spiritual stigma. 

Here we stand
hand in hand 
tripping over our feet 
in these barren wastelands. 
A strange sort of paradise potentially,
tainted and haunted
 by human behavior. 

Realm of the human race, 
a species naive to what lies
 in the outer and inner spaces..
Perhaps we've missed the point
if there is one.

Been in a haze ever since
I wandered and gazed
 into the eyes of the abyss..
A sight I couldn't miss
a realization
 I still can't dismiss,
a vision that
catapulted me into
cosmic catacombs of creation
 carried through consciousness.

Here we stand 
hand in hand,
protectors, lovers and killers
in this dreamland.