MY PRE-GHOST EXISTENTIAL LEGACY  (1-18-2020, 1:00pm, Palm Springs, California)

what is it
i sense
discern
learn  discover
in every little
thing
i see
think or do
in every
new
unexpected
sudden insight
gleaned
from virtually
everything in life
reflectively observed
perceived
and seen
through
the clearer lense
of being
consciously
tuned in
to the present
streaming flow
of this
of each
fluid
constant now
but only
when observed
divorced
completely free
from the knotted
non existent
ever evolving
ever conflictive
crippling ghosts
of both
past and future
as evidenced
found
and seen
throughout
human history
everywhere
in everything
yet only
slightly hidden
within
the mysterious
existential
humor
of all
that is
and not
what deeper
meaning
and understanding
of life
can i extract
from such
an introspective
intention
of attention
and awareness
even here
right now
in every single
breath
feeling
thought or act
i take in
have
or make
contemplate
reflect upon
accept
assimilate
or reject
release
let go of
and leave behind
in every
ink drawn
lingering line
of lettered words
or art
such as
even here
in this
creatively conjured
subconsciously mined
spontaneous
little
newborn poems
self expressive release
whose subtle
resonant ability
to universally
touch
excite
move inspire
or make
potentially
countless other
human lives
minds
hearts
spirits and souls
at least feel
something
no matter whether
perceived
and felt
as good
or bad
shallow or deep
dark
or beautiful
something at least
a little different
perhaps beyond
the more mundane
common norm
of routine lifes  
mostly dulled out
humdrum
more left brained
egoic minds perceptions
may still
nonetheless
whether seen
read
and hopefully
felt
by thousands
millions
or by only
one
other living beings
relatable mind
heart
spirit
and soul
then all these
lines
i leave behind
writ  drawn
and painted
over decades
of my temporal
life  
will certainly still
remain
and be here
in this
hopefully
still living world
so much farther
and longer
than me
so its
in that
simple knowing
i can
only
find and take
sweet comfort
solace
and peace now
even with
and in
the uncertain possibility
that at least
this more
diaphanous part
of my
still yet present
lifes creative
living
deeper essence
will still be
here
in this
profoundly
troubled world
to hopefully
bring
shed and share
a little higher
love
and light
and worthwhile
good
to if not
all
then perhaps
at least
to those
who might need
and  feel
it
most