messy venting

How could I expect you to feel for me
I am a shadow from afar
You've made it clear I'm meaningless
You can't even love yourself

So strong willed and broken
I'm living in denial
I did nothing to deserve this life
I hate being alone

I don't need a knight in shining armor
Just someone to save my life
I feel like I'm drowning
There feet are on my head

Where are you when I need you?
Always nowhere to be found!
I can't put one thought together
My mind is gone forever