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I'm Much Too Young To Fall..
Dangerous.
I'm only innocent by choice
and yet
deadly in purpose.
I could cause this world unspeakable damage.
A walking disaster.
Please..
Don't do this.
If you fall for me
You'll only fall victim to my disease.
I'm already killing myself
Just to keep you from becoming infected.
I guess..
You just don't get it.
What about me got you so curiously intoxicated?
Believe me when I say..
This was all only in passing.
Run away.
Quickly.
I'm begging you now.
Detox
And get me out of your system.
Purge yourself of this
Before blood draws up fatal addiction.
Remember..
I'm the enemy
Who's ready and willing
To digest this poison..
If that's what it takes.
Suicide may be the only reliable antidote
For my unique situation.
A fractured trigger-
One shot..
Two bullets to the brain.
Leaving all but a trace of led
Don't let it
Lead you down this road..
Again.
Just what is it about you
That's now bound my heart upon my sleeve?
What is really keeping this cancer
From killing you...
Why can't you die
From my disease?
Caution only kept pushing me forward..
Over the legal limit as I overstep
My own rights
My own boundaries.
Walls I once built
Indestructible
Nearly tumble now
As if another phobia nearly fades..
This may never fade away.
How do you see straight through me?
Avoided the lies
Caught a glimpse of my insecurities.
But I can only give a single warning so please just take my time
As long as it will make you listen!
Past and present
Exactly the same
All but a different concept
For a future laid waste to shame.
I'm sorry
But I can't guarantee my own mistakes are all done and made.
My many faults may get to you..
History could only repeat itself
And then..
My fear may get the best of me.
I'm still afraid to face this..
Regrets all remain
From mysteries I left unsolved
Left clues to follow
You just followed in vain.
Selfish as it all may seem
I'm fighting
Gasping for air to keep my head above water.
Senseless I guess.
Still wet with this influence
Left engraved deep upon my very soul.
I'm stuck in a struggle.
You might give me a reason
To refuse my other option.
A reason to swim
When it would be so easy to drown.
But it was all up in the air..
Only time will tell.
Will I always be left waiting
Watching the world turn and waste?
I would understand if you walked away.[/font]
I'm only innocent by choice
and yet
deadly in purpose.
I could cause this world unspeakable damage.
A walking disaster.
Please..
Don't do this.
If you fall for me
You'll only fall victim to my disease.
I'm already killing myself
Just to keep you from becoming infected.
I guess..
You just don't get it.
What about me got you so curiously intoxicated?
Believe me when I say..
This was all only in passing.
Run away.
Quickly.
I'm begging you now.
Detox
And get me out of your system.
Purge yourself of this
Before blood draws up fatal addiction.
Remember..
I'm the enemy
Who's ready and willing
To digest this poison..
If that's what it takes.
Suicide may be the only reliable antidote
For my unique situation.
A fractured trigger-
One shot..
Two bullets to the brain.
Leaving all but a trace of led
Don't let it
Lead you down this road..
Again.
Just what is it about you
That's now bound my heart upon my sleeve?
What is really keeping this cancer
From killing you...
Why can't you die
From my disease?
Caution only kept pushing me forward..
Over the legal limit as I overstep
My own rights
My own boundaries.
Walls I once built
Indestructible
Nearly tumble now
As if another phobia nearly fades..
This may never fade away.
How do you see straight through me?
Avoided the lies
Caught a glimpse of my insecurities.
But I can only give a single warning so please just take my time
As long as it will make you listen!
Past and present
Exactly the same
All but a different concept
For a future laid waste to shame.
I'm sorry
But I can't guarantee my own mistakes are all done and made.
My many faults may get to you..
History could only repeat itself
And then..
My fear may get the best of me.
I'm still afraid to face this..
Regrets all remain
From mysteries I left unsolved
Left clues to follow
You just followed in vain.
Selfish as it all may seem
I'm fighting
Gasping for air to keep my head above water.
Senseless I guess.
Still wet with this influence
Left engraved deep upon my very soul.
I'm stuck in a struggle.
You might give me a reason
To refuse my other option.
A reason to swim
When it would be so easy to drown.
But it was all up in the air..
Only time will tell.
Will I always be left waiting
Watching the world turn and waste?
I would understand if you walked away.[/font]
Published 10th Jan 2010
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10th Jan 2010 10:11pm
you are quite young but you seem to already be getting a pretty good grip on using words for their power.. the words are there we just try to find interesting ways to arrange them.. I was about your age when I started getting a handle on poetry and getting my own voice.. I've been writing for a total of 19 years and I've changed a lot and so you will.. keep it up.. you're doing fine.. :D cheers darlin!!
