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Lost
I look in the mirror every day
And every day I try to think of something to say
You ever wonder why am I here
You ever try to cry but never shed a tear
Are you ever angry and wish it would all go away
But every day when you wake up all your worst nightmares they always stay
Sometimes you try to fight it
You throw a punch but never land the hit
Stuck in the same old life
Going home but you never see your wife
The lake is sometimes frozen
And the path through has already been chosen
You work to get a promotion
But the truth is what you did didn't even set things in motion
Just having the notion
And realizing there was no point to your devotion
You hit a wall
But at the end of the day you don't stall
You fall
You stand up tall
But it is like you are at the end of the line at the end of the hall
You hope to hear that call
But at the end of it it gets drowned out by the mall
I'm lost
Sometimes I feel like my life is less of a gain and more of a cost
I fight invisibility
The truth is when I fight I lose all sensibility
I'm in a war I can't win
I'm fighting my sin
I'm wearing myself thin
I'm losing myself all from within
And every day I try to think of something to say
You ever wonder why am I here
You ever try to cry but never shed a tear
Are you ever angry and wish it would all go away
But every day when you wake up all your worst nightmares they always stay
Sometimes you try to fight it
You throw a punch but never land the hit
Stuck in the same old life
Going home but you never see your wife
The lake is sometimes frozen
And the path through has already been chosen
You work to get a promotion
But the truth is what you did didn't even set things in motion
Just having the notion
And realizing there was no point to your devotion
You hit a wall
But at the end of the day you don't stall
You fall
You stand up tall
But it is like you are at the end of the line at the end of the hall
You hope to hear that call
But at the end of it it gets drowned out by the mall
I'm lost
Sometimes I feel like my life is less of a gain and more of a cost
I fight invisibility
The truth is when I fight I lose all sensibility
I'm in a war I can't win
I'm fighting my sin
I'm wearing myself thin
I'm losing myself all from within
Published 3rd Jan 2020
Author's Note
I had to write these. Life has been tough. Dog is really sick. I'm having mental, physical, and emotional issues. Honestly I'm just lost in my own head. I'm different. I never truly learned the most important thing. The ability to love yourself. But I'm going to keep fighting and maybe I'll make it. The world is crazy out there and I'm still trying to find my place in it. I wish you all love and happiness not only from family but also from inside because once you lose that it becomes hard to get back. There is no greater threat to us then ourselves. Thanks for listening and I hoped I moved you. I understand they were not happy thoughts but life isn't always happy. Sometimes all you can do is fight.
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Anonymous
4th Jan 2020 10:43am
Hey there
I think this is an awesome first audio attempt. Firstly, you have a good reading voice and I think your pacing is good.
Obviously there were a few stumbles in the read and a few background bangs etc from the phone or camera moving around.
My recommendation for this is if you want to hide your camera, always put the phone on a flat surface rather than hold it because it eliminates a lot of the "fidget" noise.
A quick tip (and I tell a lot of people this) is to put a blanket over your head and the mic because it holds all the sound in and is a really cheap way of keeping the acoustics close to you. A very make shift recording studio... but it certainly works!
It's a great start indeed. Perhaps you'd consider doing a reading for us for the deep underground poetry podcast :)
Thanks for sharing.
-M
I think this is an awesome first audio attempt. Firstly, you have a good reading voice and I think your pacing is good.
Obviously there were a few stumbles in the read and a few background bangs etc from the phone or camera moving around.
My recommendation for this is if you want to hide your camera, always put the phone on a flat surface rather than hold it because it eliminates a lot of the "fidget" noise.
A quick tip (and I tell a lot of people this) is to put a blanket over your head and the mic because it holds all the sound in and is a really cheap way of keeping the acoustics close to you. A very make shift recording studio... but it certainly works!
It's a great start indeed. Perhaps you'd consider doing a reading for us for the deep underground poetry podcast :)
Thanks for sharing.
-M
Anonymous
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4th Feb 2020 7:55pm
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5th Feb 2020 8:40am
12th Mar 2024 9:33pm
Each of our journeys are different and yet similar. We find our voices and purposes in time, with a little more understanding of ourselves eventually.
Great work.
Great work.
