Eternal Night

The purpose of life
Is it to live?
Is it to die?
Will I live by grace and faith
Or to crumble in sin and filth
I can’t survive another day
But never will you see me on my knees and pray.
I lost my will to stand strong and do my best.
So in darknesses arms I feel warm again and rest.

As tears slowly fall down my cheeks.
I start making bets, on which one will take my life away from me.
If my right hits the ground first,
I might just live to see the light.
But if the other falls first.
I’m sorry my love, I’m off to lay in dark lust.

Cold.
Cold is how it feels.
To be surrounded by love,
But feel no connection.
Void.
The void is where I belong.
Darkness I feel your warmth.
Make me your conviction.
Hate.
Why do I hate myself?
I’ve done nothing wrong,
But I feel I’ll never belong.
Pain.
Pain is what I feel.
When I look at myself in the mirror.
All of you see sadness, but all I feel is terror.

As tears slowly fall down my cheeks.
I start making bets, on which one will take my life away from me.
If my right hits the ground first,
I might just live to see the light.
But if the other falls first.
I’m sorry my love, I’m off to fix the Devils thirst.

Dark angel.
Sing me a lullaby.
I don’t want to be awake another night.
Cover me, sink into me
Don’t let me think they were all right.
Bring me eternal night.