My Abusive Addiction

For the past two years you were my true confidant of relief.
You made me think you were my only friend, a brainwashed belief.
I really thought you were helping me not hit my rock bottom.
You were like my favorite time of year, a beautiful autumn.
But you had me fooled into thinking that I could live my life.
I was blinded by your instant feel good and ignored my strife.
Your optical illusion made me think that I was flying.
It wasn't till I hit the ground I realized you were lying.
Yet I was hooked by your overwhelming force of seduction.
Aware but unable to stop my life from your destruction.
I tried to piece my life back together bit to no avail.
But I'll never give up no matter how many times I fail.