Letting Go

Your smile has faded
And your eyes no longer see
The things that you loved
And what attracted you to me

I see only now
Your disappointment and hurt
And your adoring voice
Is now angry and curt

It is now as I’ve suspected
The beginning of the end
No longer wanting to be my lover
My companion or friend

I sit now and ponder
Everything that I’ve missed
The clues that were apparent
On the rare occasions we kissed

How could I be so clueless
To your boredom and disdain
Your lack of enthusiasm
When I now call your name

I guess I was just stupid
To think I had what was needed
To make you happy and content
My inner voice I should have heeded

But now it’s too late
My inadequacies are too much
You no longer enjoy my company
My voice or my touch

I have only myself to blame
For wanting more than I deserve
For thinking you could really be happy
With someone who’s a little too quiet and reserved

I do want to thank you
For all the years you did try
For trying your best to love me
And to this day I’m unsure why

This is not self pity
Or an attempt to make you feel sad
It’s just a realization of me
At what I almost had

I now know it’s time
To let you be free
To unburden you with all my crap
And to succumb to what’s not to be

Losing you will be painful
And losing our life together even more so
But seeing the ghost you’ve become
I see I must now let you go.