suicide is not just a state of mind

blood down my legs
you have left me with this pain
can i ask why must you be this way
got me so in love with the games

my heartache
it feels like forever
why must it be this way?
i get happy then it's taken away

am i responsible for my own pain
i shouldn't have given it away
in so many words, i know you feel the same
you love the chase but i don't want to race

morphine there it goes again
do what you do best
make me hallucinate it away
so destroy my brain
so my heart won't ache
i don't need a drink
especially since i can destroy my pain

but is it really destroyed?
am i just your little toy
eat me up till you choke
don't give me false hope

my heart in your mouth
each word you spoke emptied it out
now you want to come back around
go fuck yourself

morphine morphine make me your lover
we can destroy one another
we fuck each other
that way i can feel better

im so great at pretend
do know who i really am?
don't lie
don't fight
go ahead and say your goodbyes
i know now that you didn't even try

who needs to draw blood when you can be so elegant
sit in the tub and let the morphine sink in
you'll feel it when it kicks in
no wonder your so worthless
no one ever saw you worth it
you have no one to confide in
so die than