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They never stay.
When a man states "I care" and "I'm here" .. it's only temporary.
I am ONLY his..
temporary
fix..
and cheap thrill..
for what's been missing in his
life.
I'm no loss of yours if you
never wanted me to stay to begin with..
except on your
terms.
Never mine.
Take more than you ever give me.
"A one sided relationship."
as you call it.
Until you've had your
fill.
Get your kicks in while you can, baby..
then cut me loose.
Did I make you feel good?
Did you enjoy my
attention?
Send me a goodbye email with the headliner:
Thanks for the memories.
And that's how I learned to survive.
This little girl.
On my own.
Because they always leave.
I remain in the shadows of their past
regrets..
until one day I am forgotten.
Its the new norm for me.
That's a lie.
It's not so new.
What is new..
is how detached I am.
I don't feel anymore.
No hurt.
No pain.
An emptiness devoid of..
anything..
in sight.
Just another letdown.
It's happy hour somewhere.
Out there in the real world.
Not here with you.
Never with you.
Let's find my happiness in a glass..
if only fleeting.
Going forward.
Published 7th Oct 2019
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7th Oct 2019 9:33pm
beautiful Lost Girl this write made me sad
it really hurts to feel like you're special only while someone needs you...
I just wanted to send you some love today lovely one
I can't take the pain away but I'm here...
love Brenda ❤
it really hurts to feel like you're special only while someone needs you...
I just wanted to send you some love today lovely one
I can't take the pain away but I'm here...
love Brenda ❤
8th Oct 2019 4:18am
Some men only seek the chase NEVER the catch.
(:
Weak.
I'm not one of them.
You're not either.
Why settle?
Your friend,
Losty
💋
(:
Weak.
I'm not one of them.
You're not either.
Why settle?
Your friend,
Losty
💋
Anonymous
- Edited 25th Oct 2022 6:45pm
7th Oct 2019 9:37pm
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8th Oct 2019 4:20am
Hiding ..
Want nothing to do with me..
Imagine how his wife feels.
At least I'm not her.
Thankful.
Yours,
Losty
💋
Want nothing to do with me..
Imagine how his wife feels.
At least I'm not her.
Thankful.
Yours,
Losty
💋
Oh, these fleeting internet chapters that continue to haunt long after the fall. I feel this, it resonates with a recent experience for the 2nd go round. It's like you know it's all bullshit, but we keep buying it. Then you get named the crazy one when you say you're scarred.
I hug you tight, Losty...
Please don't drown your sorrows because it only numbs for the present..something I don't need to tell you. Do know that I understand because I've been down that path too. Face the pain & don't run from it.
Love, Pandy❤🌹
I hug you tight, Losty...
Please don't drown your sorrows because it only numbs for the present..something I don't need to tell you. Do know that I understand because I've been down that path too. Face the pain & don't run from it.
Love, Pandy❤🌹
8th Oct 2019 4:22am
I'm actually relieved and rejoicing I called bullshit when I saw it.
He's onto the next.
If not now, someday soon.
The chase never ends.
The catch never succeeds.
Some men run from themselves forever and from you.
The loss is theirs.
It always is.
Your friend,
Losty
💋
He's onto the next.
If not now, someday soon.
The chase never ends.
The catch never succeeds.
Some men run from themselves forever and from you.
The loss is theirs.
It always is.
Your friend,
Losty
💋
7th Oct 2019 10:12pm
You have been chasing or have settled for the wrong type of man.
I know because i might be the feminine version of You.
I am not settling anymore & if i am to be by my self -- then so be it.
If anything,
i wish i could give You a reassuring hug as Your friend --
no words spoken,
only feeling and touching.
I know because i might be the feminine version of You.
I am not settling anymore & if i am to be by my self -- then so be it.
If anything,
i wish i could give You a reassuring hug as Your friend --
no words spoken,
only feeling and touching.
8th Oct 2019 4:24am
Yes I have learned from this experience never to settle for bullshit beneath the surface.
Love on my terms.
In the deep.
Never the shallow
..or "one sided."
Settling is for other people.
Not for the fierce of heart.
Your friend,
Losty
💋
Love on my terms.
In the deep.
Never the shallow
..or "one sided."
Settling is for other people.
Not for the fierce of heart.
Your friend,
Losty
💋
Anonymous
- Edited 4th Jun 2022 2:45am
8th Oct 2019 12:46pm
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8th Oct 2019 8:16pm
I adore your fiesty ass spirt-y self too, Ethan.
You are a bad ass motherfucker who can definitely dine at my table here in the Deep.
There is only one sad ass shell of a man who can't.
Over in the shallow.
Way beyond any depths he could swim anyway.
He can't sit with us.
Not worthy of our presence.
Never will be.
Thanks for all the love as always.
Your pal,
Losty
💜
You are a bad ass motherfucker who can definitely dine at my table here in the Deep.
There is only one sad ass shell of a man who can't.
Over in the shallow.
Way beyond any depths he could swim anyway.
He can't sit with us.
Not worthy of our presence.
Never will be.
Thanks for all the love as always.
Your pal,
Losty
💜
8th Oct 2019 1:18pm
Sigh, I'm going to be the devil's advocate here and say there are good men out there; yes, even on the internet ( I found one myself 2.5 years ago ). Sometimes they last forever; sometimes they run their courses, just like real life.
Rules of thumb:
1. If a man is serious about getting involved, he knows and understands how dangerous it can be for women on the internet regarding stalkers; therefore, he will willingly provide his personal information to you.
2. If a man is serious about getting involved, he will be available when you need him ( barring work, etc. ). This mean he will call/skype/whatever, particularly in the evening and/or early morning when he should be home ALONE ( no wife et al ). No excuses.
3. If a man is serious about getting involved, he will want to be honest upfront because he is looking for the same. Therefore, will reveal truthful things about looks, etc. Most men don't want to waste their time pretending, hoping you'll fall in love with them first, before they drop bombshells. That is NOT who you want to be involved with. Else the bombs may just keep dropping. . .
4. You're too fucking good for a lying loser; and, omission of truth is a lie.
Hang tough - learning is hell but graduating sublime!
Rules of thumb:
1. If a man is serious about getting involved, he knows and understands how dangerous it can be for women on the internet regarding stalkers; therefore, he will willingly provide his personal information to you.
2. If a man is serious about getting involved, he will be available when you need him ( barring work, etc. ). This mean he will call/skype/whatever, particularly in the evening and/or early morning when he should be home ALONE ( no wife et al ). No excuses.
3. If a man is serious about getting involved, he will want to be honest upfront because he is looking for the same. Therefore, will reveal truthful things about looks, etc. Most men don't want to waste their time pretending, hoping you'll fall in love with them first, before they drop bombshells. That is NOT who you want to be involved with. Else the bombs may just keep dropping. . .
4. You're too fucking good for a lying loser; and, omission of truth is a lie.
Hang tough - learning is hell but graduating sublime!
8th Oct 2019 8:19pm
4. You're too fucking good for a lying loser; and, omission of truth is a lie.
This is why you are a Queen up in this Deep, Wise One.
You're always elevating other women on here.
And we are grateful for it.
I appreciate you and adore you woman!
Now..
let's kill him together, shall we? 💯
Your bad ass sista'
Losty
💜
This is why you are a Queen up in this Deep, Wise One.
You're always elevating other women on here.
And we are grateful for it.
I appreciate you and adore you woman!
Now..
let's kill him together, shall we? 💯
Your bad ass sista'
Losty
💜
8th Oct 2019 8:21pm
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9th Apr 2020 4:44pm
Losty,
After reading some of these comments it seems like a support group might be appropriate.
Super Duper
After reading some of these comments it seems like a support group might be appropriate.
Super Duper
15th Apr 2020 5:12am
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M
A
O
This is the BEST comment ever.
Please rsvp to that e-vite I sent you for our first meet and greet.
The support group commences!
Bright idea.
And thanks for digging deep into my poetry.
You’ve commented on quite a few.
Much-o appreciated!
Losty.
M
A
O
This is the BEST comment ever.
Please rsvp to that e-vite I sent you for our first meet and greet.
The support group commences!
Bright idea.
And thanks for digging deep into my poetry.
You’ve commented on quite a few.
Much-o appreciated!
Losty.
