Insomniac

I can't sleep
I over think
A time machine
Plays the scenes
Inside my head
A younger me  
Should have said
Should have fought
Stood up
On those hostile moments
 
I should have shared
Myself with him
I looked around
Their eyes bold
Laughing at us
I should have tried  
To see the rise
 
What could have been
Lost in Imagination
High definition
Reality foreign  
I escaped the one with you in it
 
What will be next  
Time forwards
Can't be sure
Stress builds up
Not seeing ahead  
Will it collapse?
Before it starts?
 
What ifs clogging my brain
Guilt
Regret
Shame
Are they the same?
Bitterness
Resentment
Vengeance?
Should I quit?
Submit?
Drugs?