contradictions

Forever was a lie
Yet I believed it when u spoke
when I looked into your eyes
I missed that something u were trying to hide
I neglected to see that you're full of arrogance self riotousness and pride
yet still I welcomed your invasion
my soul and my body
accepted u on every occasion
why must I seek acceptance
why can't I just be alone
I'm stuck in this state of ambivalence
no one should have this power
my soul was up for the taking  
I left it out for u to devour
try as I may, try as I might
this is a battle my heart can not fight
no longer believe in you or your intentions
I think there's something u forgot to mention
played me like a pro
your words touched me, set my heart aglow
I've grown older n u would think wiser
but im no match for u  
as I look in your eyes that flicker soft Amber
your beauty's unmatched
n u knowingly use it for gain
and I got attached.
break it off like a dead limb
a future my mind  painted so bright
slowly fading, becoming so grim
easy to lose and hard to regain
trust isn't to be played with
once lost, things r never the same  
don't expect a warm welcome
you won't find it here  
apparently ur not the one  
no time to waste
I won't be mislead
I won't settle in haste
u will not get n my head
should have never let u n my bed
the sheets whisper and taunt
knowing exactly what I want
I can not give in a single bit
though I fien for u like a junkie
just needing one more hit
look in my eyes while I'm down on my knees
it's u I want,
that I desire to please  
ur a work of art, an absolute fantasy
your angelic, yet somehow demonic
my expectations were straight sardonic
your too good to believe
lips so soft, why do they decieve
I sit in solitude
thinking how things could be different
mind exploring every avenue
we are each others contradiction  
opposite and no good for each other
maybe our own addiction
i hate it will end like this
but u rather live a life of crime
love comes last in your world
so there can be no trying again, no next time.