time served

 
I won't be taking any more prisoners
no one else will do hard time chained to me
I won't let my heart fall and charm another
I know I'm not the faithful kind...I thought I was
once when I was young and in love

I've learned there is a love of another kind  
one of the familiar
it's selfish and cares only for self
 
I'm not made for relationships
not cut right or some damned thing
I always was a wild child
should have known that wouldn't change
 
I'm easily distracted
somehow you knew that and looked the other way
while I flirted shamelessly
perhaps what I wanted was a good manhandling  
some jealousy...something
 
I know...I know and all the feminists gasp
but a lonely little girl of a schizo mother  
without rules or boundaries  
once had a daddy who lay down the law
made her feel safe and loved
 
you let me run wild
there I go blaming you again
it wasn't your fault
you were dealing with a master manipulator...headstrong  
you tried to be firm...I called your bluff
 
I left you holding heartache
I'm not proud of myself